I am crying so hard right now.
I can’t even move.
I know everyone is so upset of this whole thing. He was an amazing actor and even more amazing man (which I’ve heard). But I feel a little different about it than other people might. When I saw he died I was so upset. When I saw it was a suicide, something felt weird. I wasn’t upset anymore. I mean he made it 63 years!! That’s HUGE! To be able to make it with depression for THAT long. I can’t even do 25..
But than I found this. I just assumed he died by drugs. That seems to be the norm at least..
But it wasn’t drugs..
He killed himself the exact way that I have thought about killing myself. The EXACT WAY! I saw in a tv show one (CSI or something) a guy hung another man with a belt around a door handle.. I didn’t know that was possible. Ever since I’ve seen that, I can’t stop thinking about how easy it is. Once I was so damn close to doing it. I had this belt.. But I didn’t. Not that time. I have nothing around that I could hang from, so the door handle seemed like a good idea.
To just read that and know that.. I lost it. And the fact that he cut his wrist..
IS THIS FUNNY TO ANYONE ANYMORE?? Is making fun of cutting or suicide funny anymore?? Can you still makes jokes?? Is depression still just a thing that someone can just get over?? This is still a serious disease that can kill anyone! Even a 63 year old, amazing, man who had so much going for him. It’s not a joke. We can’t just make it stop and think happy thoughts.
My biggest thing is I REALLY pray that he is happy now. He is finally getting peace and is really happy. That his soul is extremely happy!
No family should have to go through with any of that. They shouldn’t. But people need to also realize that the person IS in fact thinking of their family, even if they are leaving them behind.
I just hope Robin rests in peace and happiness now, and that his family and friends can get though this very hard time without him in their life.
RIP Robin Williams